Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I'm ready to let go..

It's truely amazing how much your life changes after you have a child. I love doing what I do. I love waking up every morning to Jon-Eriks beautiful smile. My life is so busy and chaotic at times I forget that I ever had "friends." I'm so tired of my "friends" telling me how busy they are and how much they are working and are trying to make time to see me. I'm ready to just change my number and delete my facebook. The only reason I have that thing anymore is to keep in touch with my family and stalk other people with babies. I see my mom and how she really has no friends. All she does after work and her meetings is sit at home on the computer. I don't want to end up like her. I know I have a few friends who I'm hoping will always be there. I just don't want to end up alone. It seems like the only time I'm truely happy is when I'm with Jon-Erik and Chris. Everytime I think about my friends I get sad and depressed in a way. I feel like the only way for me to have closure is to just erase all contact with them so that way I won't expect anything from them and will have no reason to be unhappy.

On another note, Jon-Erik is about to have his 2nd Thanksgiving in a week and I'm so excited! This year he will get to enjoy all the yummy food we eat!! I was hoping to have him potty trained by Christmas but that is on hiatus (sp?) until furthur notice. For some reason he refuses to sit on the potty now. He was doing so well for a few weeks. I heard it happens with some children so I can't say I'm suprised.

He is pretty good at using signs now. He's able to say about 10 words in sign right now. It's enough to make my life a lot easier! It's amazing all the whining and crying that gets elimated when they learn to sign! It will be even better when he can finally talk. So far he is able to say hott, done, eye, mommy, and daddy. We are getting there! He just isn't ready. I know I'm doing the best I can at teaching him.

Well, until next time. Here he is at the mall the other day with his best friend, Aiden ! =]

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